Alone

I can't help but feel like I am going through this journey alone. Sometimes I feel like people do not understand the seriousness of this disease. There is no human cure for this cancer. If this cancer continues to progress my little boy will go home much earlier than I would of ever expected. If this is the case, if this is what God will allow, I will miss him. There will always be a huge hole in my heart until the day when I am reunited with him. I ask God to help me live through this. Sometimes I feel so overwhelmed that my body gets weak and I feel such a tightness in my chest. I don't write this to make anyone feel bad. I do know of the people that have been so helpful. It's just the loneliness of being in this situation when our family is the one who faces this every minute of everyday. I do thank all who have helped and who continue to help. I am forever grateful. It even helps to know that people are reading my blog.

Well, as I think about other families going through difficult times, I think about the New Jersey Families that lost their children in a tragic accident. I do not know if they know Jesus, but I sure do pray this path leads them to hope in Christ. If not this family will be consumed by this awful tragedy. I now know that living this life without Christ will only lead us to despair with no way out. We may not have a say so in things we cannot control, but I do know that God will bring justice to those things that try very hard to destroy us. I believe that God will pour His wrath on satan and bring justice to His children. I hold on to this verse "God is close to the broken hearted" I look foward to the day that cancer will get what it deserves.