Feeling Emotions

I read this book called Getting Over the Blues (A Woman's Guide to Fighting Depression) by Leslie Vernick. She is a Christian licensed clinical social worker with a doctorate in Biblical Counseling. I use to think that depression would never happen to me because I am such a "happy person", but that all changed November 2004. Walking in this journey I have and am having emotions I did not know existed. Leslie says that "depression is the body's attempt to protect itself. When depressed, our body starts to shut down and our mind and will power become sluggish, even immobile. This may be our body's defense to protect itself from overwhelming stress and emotions that threaten our well being." I am not at that point yet because I am doing some preventive things so that don't hit rock bottom. My boys need me and I have to take care of myself so I can function. I am going to a wonderful Christian Counselor. She is amazing and has and is an incredible help to me.

I think about the Apostle Paul, Job, and Jeremiah all who dealt with depression. I think about Jesus and His intense emotions like deep sorrow, anger, and undescribable pain. Just thinking of these mighty men and our Savior encourages me to know that all of them can relate above and beyond my pain. Just knowing those things in the spiritual makes me feel like I am not alone.


Well as of now, I am still trying to figure out these intense emotions. I would have never thought in a million years that my little boy would.......have cancer. I am devastated by this and I may make mistakes and fail, but I know through Christ I have hope.